Not feeling particularly chipper today. The jobless thing is killing me.

I fully subscribe to the theory that a positive attitude is necessary to get past the crappy things in life, but does anyone realize how much energy it takes to overcome negativity? Ugh! The worst part is wanting to get drunk or find some other way to pass out, but realizing that it will do absolutely no good at all. So I gotta bitch about it on my blog, and show a side of me that I don't like to show.

Sure, I know things will get better. And I do understand that things have been worse. But sometimes I feel like I did while I was surviving cancer... constantly having this cloud over my head, and wishing like hell that I could get out from underneath the damn thing! Grrr...

I was telling my brother Van tonight that something's gotta give... I just hope it's not me...

Oh well, tomorrow's another day...

Still in the CD player:
"Gasoline" by The Hard Lessons
"Side One" / "Side Two" by Adrian Belew
"Bad Company" by Bad Company
"Always Outnumbered, Never Outgunned" by the Prodigy